The feeling of being 'stripped of joy' emphasized by feelings of depression and emptiness would have been prevalent as a result. This would have highlighted the requirement to look very closely at what it is that establishes your identity, both to you and to those around you.
Acceptance of your current state may prove difficult because it means recognising that you have little control of the changes taking place across your Physical, Mental, Emotional and Spiritual Self. The Singularity portal I have previously written about is bringing about displacement as different parts of your being are fluctuating at different frequencies.You may experience these fluctuations as - are you coming or going, what to do next, leave it, finish it, don't bother, let it go, procrastinate, day dream, concentrate, tiredness, frustration at big things, annoyance at little things, other people - yes, other people - no, friendly then solitary, organised then getting lost in your Self.
WHO AM I???
This is the process of the Divine Self establishing deep within your Heart Centre, emerging and overshadowing the previous patterns and habits of behaviour held in place for so long by the Ego self. Time to move over Little ONE and let Source direct. You will still be YOU but a greater version of YOU. It is not about understanding what is happening or even predicting what is to come. It is ALL about acceptance and letting go what is being released from you by YOU.
You might not like giving up control, you might be too stubborn to believe you need to change, you might try with all your might to hold it ALL together at a time when everything is coming apart, to go it alone because you are strong and don't need anyone else to help you get to where it is you are going. Spiritual Vanity may prevent you for asking for help from others. You know you best after All. But understand this Little ONE, YOU knows you better.
Believe that YOU can, let your Self do the rest.