Gaining knowledge about what is happening

I need to ask a question, sorry, but am I going mad seeing all this spirit stuff around me or what? It’s intense and unusual and I wonder what is real. Three people say I have psychosis, whatever that is! I ask you because you seem to be connected.

 All these phenomena are the result of your awareness and your interpretation of the frequencies of energy passing through you.
Everything abstract 'they' have not themselves experienced, they would regard as craziness or psychosis.  Your world is not their world.
On a train journey, you see many different sights drift past the window often at high speed and blurred, surreal and dreamlike....
Let it come, let it go. Not everything has to make sense all at once, just experience it as it passes you along the way.
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Q: It’s like my brain can't process and it becomes aching in the physical sense trying to understand and explain it to others.
A: Know who you can talk to - and about which subject to talk about. Adapt your choice of words to the knowledge of those around you.
Some people are not where you are. You start broadcasting like a radio station and people will want to switch you off.

Q: I know I become bothersome to people because of my thirst for knowledge from those individuals. I prefer their knowledge rather than reading books myself if that makes sense.
A: Your Higher Self knows all that you have yet to learn, your purpose is to allow the expansion of that within you. You have lifetimes of knowledge available to you, but with only this single life to understand that knowledge. Don't attempt to shortcut the experience of learning by directly gaining knowledge from another. The words of Knowledge are embedded through lessons learned not picked up like leaves along the path. What is 'in - formation' can only take the 'form' of knowledge through the application of experience.

Q: Hmmmm so much to learn and do in so little time while I’m here. I sense haste you see.
Doesn't help sleeping an hour or two a night either lol.
A: If thirst for knowledge becomes your sole focus, then you learn nothing from the wisdom of experience. You become an information intellect with no substance. To learn one grain of sand thoroughly is far greater than observing a mountain from afar. 
Work with what surrounds you. These are the tools of your trade.

Q: But I still don’t get what I’m supposed to do, I get so far then whoosh I go backwards.
A: There is no backwards – only the next Now moment with new choices and new decisions based on those choices.
Your Higher Self provides you with all you need, when you need it. Stop looking backwards or forwards and work with what you have already Now.  Paint has to dry before you apply the next coat or you risk the whole lot peeling away before it has time to settle.

Q: I find I can’t meditate either with so much bombardment from all this stuff. What’s the best way to meditate in your opinion, as an example then I will go and practice.
A: Meditation is not a practice of obtaining knowledge in itself - it is the state of mind achieved by closing the awareness of the five senses. 
If your mind is not allowing you to achieve this, then these are the areas you need to focus upon. Seeking further knowledge just adds fuel to the mind’s fire. Learn to still the mind rather than continue to feed it with what your ego seeks to expand its own existence upon.